MIA

Dedicated to Mia's Daddy.  I came across this post on his facebook page and it touched my heart so deeply.  His words touched my heart and I wrote this poem for him though he will probably never read it.  (April, 2014)


MIA .... by Chris Derouen

"Tonight's the first night I try to deal with this sober. Everything I do seems to be wrong. Outside of nausea, I'm just empty. I feel guilty the few times I've been able to smile or laugh....like I'm betraying her memory. There's so many of you who have extended offers to be here....but I don't even want to be touched. I'm angry and guilty. I know in my heart there's more I could have done. ... I can't shake it. I just want to go to sleep and shut my eyes forever. I find myself sleeping in the same position I used to cuddle you, when you'd back your little delicate body against mine and let me hold you through the night. I dream a dream you never died, and there was never a day we didn't pick flowers or watch Tom and Jerry. We stay up late eating all of your favorite junk food....singing and dancing. We dress your barbies in all new outfits. You bring me cups of tea and cook my favorite meals....bring them to me on your little colored plates. You ask me when I'm done, and serve me some more. And then I wake up."

Her soft brown hair
Forever in my dreams
Always in daddy's arms
just like yesterday, it seems
My sweet little angel
you flew away too soon
My sweet little angel
Your smell fills my room
Mia, hold me close
when I dream of holding you
Mia, daddy loves you!
Your my little flower that forever bloomed
You were always my little sunshine
You filled my world with joy and light
Mia, daddy loves you
Hold me close each night
From the moment that I held you
to the day I had to let you go
Mia, you were and are my angel
and this I know, you know!
So, Mia, when I cry
know daddy just misses you
I know your dancing in heaven
picking pink flowers for me and you
So, Father, let her dance
with all the angels in Heaven above
and Father, hold her close each day
and let me always feel her love!
She is my little angel
swinging and singing in heaven with glee
Yes, my little Mia,
You will always be the sunshine inside of me!
So, Mia, when I cry
know daddy just misses you
Pick a pink flower for me
and I'll smile up at heaven for you!
   by Stephanie Durand, April, 2014
In Memory of Little Mia, Lace Up for Mia!